Friday, November 15, 2013

aku minta maaf geng,aku bukan kawan yg baik

ibu said "always see the good side of people",
i have failed ibu terribly
i forgot to see the good side of you
blinded by my own pride,
i have become a terrible friend
you will read what you want to read,
you will hear what you want to hear,
but i am asking you please,
read thoroughly,
i assume you've already see me as a frenemy, a stranger, backstabber
i can't blame you,
because my words have made you felt that way,
my words have stabbed you in the back,
my words have shattered your trust that you once had on me,
i am so ashamed for my actions,
i can only imagine the betrayal that you've felt right now,
no matter how much "sorry" i have said,
it wont mend our strained friendship,
if i could turn back time,
if only i could.. i am terribly sorry for everything i did, that hurt you
i just wish you guys would hear me out,
im not saying im not guilty,
just hear me,asking for your apology,
all of your apology

you might say,i'm playing with words,
no, i am trying to reach you through these words,
i know that i am asking too much
aku betul betul minta ampun dan maaf

Saturday, July 20, 2013

standing or just fall

i dont understand anymore. sometimes its normal, sometimes, it feel wrong all over
im sighing over and over like an old soul, wailing and thinking, looking
look for the best problems, hoping you'd find the best solution
i wish i can stand next to you,
but i can only look from afar,
dear me,
give me strength, just so i can smile and be proud
when inside im aching to do the same,
but hey, dont mind me, just look ahead,
if its written, then, i , too, will be there someday
not too soon, nor too late
just give me strength
because as you stand on the podium,
i smile and beamed,
and i break silently

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I Give These Words To Me Fellow Comrades, Here, There, Everywhere

me fellow comrades,

the semester that we've been longing since the first semester, fifth semester, muahahaha
a lot have happen since 2011, at first, there were many, somehow, the number of students
decreases gradually, as expected from the teachers.
we've made quite a bond fellow comrades, although our time was quick and short,
i cherish our friendship dearly, i do wish we could meet up sometime, somehow,
i have so many things to share, but im not great at expressing huh?
back then, we'd be like ; "ahhh...&*^%!!! bila nak sem 4? ..bila nak sem 5.."
then we would say things like ; "tak sabaa nyee nak sem ni..sem ituu.."
are you reading this one? i hope you are,
because we still talked about you from time to time,
not just you, we talked about others kids too, wondering how were things for them
my writing skills karat already, i'll write better next time
we still remember all of our friends, i hope all of you are doing great


Saturday, February 2, 2013

belajarlah dengan sesungguh-sungguhnya



















there are days..i just wanna go to the beach..and cry my heart out like this. those days, when you are just so sad..you don't know why, it felt so empty,so lonely that it hurts..to those who are currently studying. please enjoy it, your friends, the environment, that freedom to think beyond, limitless, endless ideas, subjects, theories, stories, fun..this..this.. serenity, these group of people,who stuck by you even when you're screwed up..once you lost that, and you step onto the adulthood, its over. i mean, im only having a spoon-full of adulthood..its as bitter as it can be..cause you're just a kid..

Monday, January 7, 2013

young adult

bad things happen
in ways you couldn't  imagine
at a time you wouldn't expect
so sometimes,
i imagine myself
facing the worst situation that i could possibly imagine,
i didn't get through,
i cried halfway thinking about it,
so,
jangan putus doa,
Ya Allah, janganlah Engkau beri hambaMu dugaan yang tak mampu hamba lalui

 ~robbi yassir walatu a'ssir Ya Qarim