I used to have so many things to say in mind, so much that I have to pour it out in words. So many things have assembled and these thoughts get scrambled up in my brain to the point that I can’t get them straight. I have been exposed and allowed myself to be contaminated with the junks in this world. I have become lazy. I am prone to blame myself such because blaming others are considered as an act of selfishness. Lastly, I am still looking for myself, that I once lost, where am I?